I went to see Take That last night. They were awesome! I don't believe I have ever been so excited?!..............today, however, I have lost my voice,and I am going on a course this evening. Ho hum!

It would seem that there aren't enough hours in a week to fit everything that I need to be doing.

I have a problem with commitment, not lack of commitment, but actually saying 'no' just no I'm sorry I can't fit it in, and my poor husband is suffering silently but I know he's cross.

I have been running every other night and trying to build up my distance, but bizarrly my distant is less? I think it is mainly to do with worn out muscles and they are in need of a rest. My breathing techniques are much better, but I ran this morning on my old regular route and had to stop after 25 minutes because the back of my lower legs were just pounding. I'm going to run again on Saturday morning and try the same route again to see if it was just a one off.

I have had church commitments, and work and NVQ stuff and people ask me all of the time, could we meet for this? could we do that? and I hate to turn people down, so I say yes, and have no time left for myself or my family. I have already agreed to run Friday evening and remembered I have promised to go to the pictures with Mark and Grace because I was running when they went last week (although I didn't really relish the prospect of Hannah Montana) this week it is Coraline and I am a bit of a Tim Burton fan, so I have to cancel my running and change it to Saturday morning instead. That then frees me up on Sunday, because the last few have been spent at church in the am followed by running in the afternoon whilst Mark cooks Sunday lunch and looks after the children and its his day off too.

So, knew commitment, learn to say no before I burn out and take everyone down with me....

I stole this from another blog because I was deeply affected last night by an episode of 'Grays Anatomy' it was quite controversial, and for a while, a lady refused to give up her husbands organs because only two days before he had been perfectly normal, and then in that short space of time she had to make the decision to swich off the machine that was keeping him alive. It must be a very difficult decision to make when faced with giving your loved ones organs, but the gift of life is a legacy in their name. I for one am an organ donor, and if your not, become one today it takes 5 minutes to become a hero.

Something to convince you of your decision -

This -

Helloooo!

I've been so poorly. I apparently had a chest infection, I went to the Dr's after symptoms such as shivery, sweaty, and generally very tired and rough feeling lasted into day 5. I had pain at the back of my head, in my glands and throat and ears.... the Dr at the walk in centre decided it was a chest infection even though I didn't complain about my chest?

So I finish my antibiotics tomorrow and I haven't been able to go out running for 10 days now, and its been torture. I really need to get back out there now, but today is the first day that i have managed without ibuprofen for head pain (technically I think I have had sinusitis) but i'm not a Dr.

Anyway Happy Easter! Grace had been unwell too, she had silly temperatures, 38.9 and such like! but no other symptoms and thankfully it has cleared up without any evidence of anything.

So Friday we went to see 17 again, its criminal looking at Zac Efron without his shirt on at my age! I should be far more interested in Matthew Perry. On Saturday we had to do some shopping for Baptism gifts for my friends daughter and also some Easter gift shopping for Dood who told me he had bought an Easter egg even though we weren't doing gifts for each other, so I bought him an Easter Morrisey cd. After Grace and I had been to the Christian book shop near the Cathedral, she decided she wanted to go up the Spire (gasp) so the lady didn't charge us incase she couldn't make it, but she did all 181 steps and back down again, and at a reasonable pace. She got a certificate verifying it with her name on too! However, I had to virtually drag her back to the carpark saying "I told you not to do it" but she had a great time. From the we went to Nannas for tea, (Easter tea as we could not be there on Sunday). I had a very special event going on, on Sunday.

Sunday morning we went to church and the Church leader delivered the whole sermon dressed as a white rabbit. We had a big family lunch and in the evening went to church again for baptism.

Today we went early to Starbucks for coffee and cakes ( ( had a muffin) and then we went horse racing at Warwick, I don't normally like going on a bank holiday because its full of girls in very short dresses and very large cleavages and lots of fake tan swanning up down like they are on a cat walk put £1 each way on a 2-5 shot and the bookies just taking the bet, anyway I'm only envious because I would probably look like Monica out of 'Shameless' dressed like that and I didn't have a winner all day.

After that we went to our usual Easter break fair and went in the fun house and the dodgems and had a go on hook a dook and went in the arcade to do the slot machines and penny pushers and all of that stuff. We have since come home and had take out dominoes pizza and these chewy hot cookies with chocolate sauce that has given me incredible tooth ache! ...... time for more ibuprofen I think? but still it was a great Easter break especially as Dood has been off (not at work, not as in gone off)to do it all with us.

Bad week, I've been ill since Friday and I went to the walk in centre last night because its just going on too long, and top of that Grace is unwell also and I'm struggling to look after her..........

It turns out that I have a chest infection, which is totally baffling as I can't feel any tightness, any wheeziness, no coughing or generally anything wrong with my chest?? I have a lot of congestion in my throat which makes it hard for me to swallow, I have a heavy head and swollen glands and I sound very nasal when I talk,but no cold symptoms (secretions). The Dr did however, say that my blood pressure was high.....again I am baffled, I keep fit and don't normally have problems with my blood pressure. Its possible that its just because I am poorly or the fact that I had to drive to the walk in centre by myself at night which is very close to the town centre.

Grace has had a major high temp for a couple of days, but no other symptoms, she is much better today, but still relying on Ibuprofen and calpol, but nowhere near as high. She is on 500mg of clarythromycin anyway so hopefully that will nip anything in the bud.

So both of us have been tucked up in bed for a few days.

I did go to see 'We will rock you' even though I was trying to get rid of my tickets on the morning of the trip at 6 a.m because I felt so ill but it was too short notice and I ended up going absolutely full of medication, it was a long 12 hours but I'm glad i got to see the show it was absolutely fantastic..........

Man have I had a busy week? I've had to work (violins) and prepare for ofsted and prepare for my NVQ observation. Whilst doing that I have also done lots of piano practise to get ready for my grade1 and I am still doing my Alpha course.

We haven't heard anything with regard to Graces disability status as yet but that could be due to me being late sending in passport sized photos of Grace, and also if they are still giving it some thought and discussion then that has to be a good thing.

I have been for a run this morning and it was last Thursday when I last had the opportunity. I've decided that I will run tomorrow morning or atleast go to the gym and try to catch up on where I've missed out.

Today is the much awaited first day of Aintree and I have made my selections as follows-

2.00 Hills of Aran
2.35 Walk on
3.10 Exotic dancer
3.45 Sonevafushi (nap)
4.20 Poquelin
4.55 Chapoturgeon (not usual for me to pick favourites, but its staring out of the page at me?

5.30 Font and i've also had a little bet on Whinstone boy (a friend springs to mind)

I have not yet made any selections for Saturday and I can't believe that I won't be around for it! I'm going to see 'We will Rock you' in London, and whilst I am very much looking forward to it,I can't believe its Grand National Day! It would have been the first one I would have spent with Mark since he was no longer a bookie!! (he was working for the last four of them). Oh well, I'll just have to find somewhere to have a pimms and try and watch the big race, atleast I will be able to watch it recorded.

Instead I will be singing 'The seven seas of Rye' at the top of my voice........

"Fear me you Lords and lady preachers,
I descend upon your Earth from the skies
I command your very souls you unbelievers
Bring before me what is mine!
The seven seas of Rye".......ooh I'm well excited...

I learned this evening that Louis, someone who frequented the CF forum, died this week. He was 18................what can I say? CF is relentless.

Party on dude!

God bless your family and rest in peace xx